Why??

Whats wrong with me?? After so many things, how can I still miss her?? Wheres my dignity?? Even anger?? Do I love her that much?? I dunno. I really dunno. I wanna get the hell out of the misery. I need a light. Please guide the way out.

Thank you to remove those things. I am sorry to be rude. Coz once I let you step on me, you will step me more. I just wanna defend myself. Thats all. You can label me as what you want.

I never let anyone in my life to talk so cheap about me. If they did, those words, the anger, even after so long, I would not forgive them at all. But you. It's not even took a day also. Why?? Why you are so special?? Why??!!

I also wanna throw you away like you did. I really want it to happen. This love is killing me. I dont want it anymore. It's been far too long already. Why?? Why it should be you to do those things to me?? Why?? Why it should be you?? Why??

I hate when the night comes. I hate when I am weak enough to fall asleep. And I dream all those things. Haiz...

p.s.: You are a special person in my life.