Is there any??

I still miss you. You still here. Messing with my stuffs, throwing away my pillow, disturbing my sleep in middle of night. When I sleep, you are there. When I close my eyes for peace, you are there. When I wanna give up, you are there. When I need you, your words are there. When I need your kiss, the kisses seems to be alive back. When I need your hug, your arms seems to be around me. When I am worried, your fingers seems touching my hair. But then, is there love?? I mean not my stupid imagination, is there any small piece??

The day is coming, I am happy yet there are massive pain inside is killing me. You gonna disappear from my life. I dunno whether it's forever or just temporary. And the worst painful part is I cant do anything to avoid it. Is there any way?? Is there any hope?? Will you hug me when I come and meet you?? Will you shout at me and insult me in front everybody?? Why I intend to live in fake world which I create for nothing?? Do you still care about me??

p.s.: a step I put towards the white light.