Sunday, May 3, 2009

I can't endure the pain anymore, honey.

Another tiring weekend. People planned to have a loaf of rest at my sis place(KL) with parents and nephew and niece. It's turns out like a disaster. Suddenly my mom running towards the room door crying and yelling "You better wake up now and pack up your things, grandmom died". I was like owh shit, my SLEEP. Then I asked her back, "Why I wanna pack my things?? I can go back to my hostel". The reply was "You are the grandson, people will be looking for you at there". Then have to help my dad answering his calls when he was driving the car. It tooks less than 3 hours from KL to Penang wei!!! My dad literally flew to Penang.

Reach at Penang, suddenly people started to cry all. I was like WTF!!! She lived long enough, 90 plus years man!!! I like wanna ask them "Is 90 years not enough for your mom??". But then I will be whacked till death. So, shut the fuck up and mind my own business. It's like a whole bunch of people that my grandmom not even knew them are crying. Haiz!!!

Even busy, still have time to think about her. It's not I wanna think about her. It's just when I enter my room, all the memories refreshed by itself. All I can do is just smile alone, wondering will things will be beautiful like last time. She was the most beautiful thing ever happen in my life. Why it should ended like this?? I thought wanna give her back her things but then my mom said, no need bring anything. Your clothes at home is enough for you to stay. I like "urgh". Damn I missed it again. I wanna meet her, but when I think I wanna meet, it's gonna be the last time to see her face. I wanna meet her as soon as possible yet I dont want too. I wanna drag the moment as long as I can. Coz once I give the things, that's all. I'm gone from her life. That's all. She will close the chapter.

Hey, stop ignoring me. I still miss you. I dunno what I should do to forget you. I wish I can.

p.s.: I cant endure the pain anymore, honey.

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