RIP Michael Jackson!!!

Since small, I was obsessed with his outfit. The glove, those jacket and the details on the jacket.

p.s.: Legends are who die and make the whole world cry. And they live in those tears.

I need motivation..

It really hard to do want someone else want you to do. I really really hard. I am trying!!! But my results still the same. I need to increase my pointer. Coz it's not gonna worth anything to me if the pointer same like this. This semester, only 4 subject. No more failing!!! Hope can score. I need it. I need motivation. I need something that will make me realize that there is hope. I am sick of it. No matter how hard I tried, why always I failed?? Is it coz this is not my destiny?? Yea, I know this is not my dream. But, this is the situation. Nothing that I can do to change anything. It's already 2nd year. All I can do is just finish it. Then, hunt my dreams. But, I need to at least do well in this course.

I just dunno. Sometimes, I feel like withdraw the course and do whatever I wanna do. Sometimes, I feel like I can do it, it just another 2 years, study hard!!! But, if I always fail like this, there will be no hope and trust will be left.

Whatever it is, this semester, no fail, no C. Hope so. Pray for me people!!!

p.s.: Last night I cried thinking of you, angel!!!

Happy Buffday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

To better or worst, we are apart. Temporary or permanent, we had those memories with us forever.

p.s.: I hope you are fine. You favorite color : purple. My only post in purple color.

Boredom..

Boredom killing me. I tried to chat with many people, but they don't feed my boredom. So, here I am, telling stories to feed my own boredom.

There is something common happens to me every time. I will be a good friend to anyone very quick. Anyone is actually not everybody. I keep them happy, I respect them. I dunno what I will do wrong and they will started to ignoring me. Why they can't understand that they are so precious to me?? It's not only about girlfriends, it's about friends too. Do I am annoying?? Do I talking crap till yall get hurt??

p.s.: I'm used to it. Why I'm still thinking the life is still fair??

Live like a cannon ball..

I realized something. When Prena cried, and she keep on "please, please", I realized that, I should appreciate this friendship. After the incident happen between me and my best-friend, the betrayal. My point of view about friendship was they all just friends and they can get a new friend if I go away. But, the way Prena said, I was shocked. Thanks a lot. You saved my life.

Esther, I dunno what to say. You was in my friend list in MSN. We chat like 3 times before this?? I dunno why, all of sudden, we get so close. When you asked me to join you do the online thing, I was like do I need to take this responsibility?? She gonna be disappointed if I did something to myself. Then, about the trip, I was shocked. Why this kind of offer is coming to me when I decided to end my life. Even you asked me not to do that. Thanks.

Andrew, brother from another mother. I am crying when I think about our friendship. I dunno why. Thanks for the company. Thanks for the friednship. I will make sure it last forever. I will make sure it last longer. I learnt something. I learnt the meaning of friendship.

Farouq, you gave me space to hang out, everytime I felt alone. Even I moved to hostle, I spent most night at your room. I even got your habit. May be stay with you for 1 year, you influenced me. LOL!!!

By the way, I am ok now. Thanks. I wanna feel the friendship-ness. You all made me stronger.

p.s.: Andrew words: Live like a cannon ball.