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I dunno what to say. So fast, I have been replaced?? It's funny how things work huh?? I am not jealous. I would not disturb you or threaten you. Come on, it's your life, you have rights to do anything you want. Who am I?? If this is what you want, what can I do?? Go on.

I have 2 weeks plus. I wanna go everywhere we have been. May be it will make me happy. Thanks to gimme chance to fight back. May be you learn something from that. I thought I made you stronger. But then, you are still the same. Afraid to face the reality. My only request, please dont end up like me.May be now you will reply "no" or "never". Things change as time past by like your love. You seems happy. Why I wanna destroy that?? I wish I can give up on you, move on, but I cant. I just cant. This love is like a leech. It sticks on my heart and sucking my life out. I dunno when it's gonna stop sucking. Guess when there is nothing left. I am sick of this. Figuring out what I should do now. I am lost. Totally lost!!!

I hate when the night falls. When the darkness come and mess my feelings. Go away. I dont want to sleep. I dont want to dream. Go away!!! Please. Although my fear was darkness, I love darkness. Most of time I will in my dark room alone. But now, I am scared of it. Coz last time you was the light in the dark. Look what you did to me?? I am not blaming. Just look. Keep aside your anger, it's not gonna protect you forever. Just look!!!

Now, I dont have the rights to say "I miss you" anymore. Coz I know how a guy feels when his girlfriend's ex disturbing her. Coz he used to do that when she was mine. Now, she knows where to poke to hurt me. Guess I revealed my weakness to her. I want you to know this, I tried as much as I can and nothing changed. I dont want you to say that I did not try hard. I encouraged you to keep in touch with your friends. I used to hack your Friendster profile and comment on your friend's profile. I just wanted you to spend your time with them. I just want you to continue live like how you lived before I was there. I even settled misunderstanding between you and your friend. And look now, all of them againsting me. I dunno why. I just dunno.

p.s.: I know you hate this. But, I dunno why there always no option in my life.