What Hurts The Most.

I dunno what time I slept and I am awake again, 1.29 a.m. I dunno what was wrong, just now I slept after blog about headache. Now, I know why I had headache just now, not enough sleep. Now, I guess I know what's the meaning torture very well. May be I am guilty to hurt you, but I just dunno what is torturing me for few months. Sometimes I cry till I felt asleep. Sometimes I scream till my lungs sore. Deep inside I am bleeding. No matter what is the fact, no matter I know what is the risk I am taking now, deep inside there are many many tiny lil pieces of my heart wants you, wants you to come back and hug me. Although I know you are not gonna come back, but a small, very tiny, hope are still there. I am living based on the illogical hope now. Idiot am I?? I miss you. I cant sleep without those kiss. I lost everything, not only you, everything in my life. My confidence that one day everything will be okay. My dream, every the tiny dreams, everything that I spent a lot of time to make it beautiful. All gone. What hurts the most was looking at the things that you thought you will definitely will have it in your life no matter what is no more in your life. It's falling down right in front of you. I am sorry. I just cant ignore my feelings and hide it.



What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

p.s.: I dunno how I'm gonna pass you your stuff. I really dunno.