Fuck those fake words!!!

Today, it was so nice. Sleep all the day. Eat and lazy-ing in front of laptop. Skipped all the classes. Only one of it I went.

Few days before, I and two of my friends had a talk. We went out at 12.30 at night. So, the normal thing, we was smoking. Then, my friend said, yesterday I smoked a lot. Some emotional thing it seems. Then both of them know what is that about. And I don't have any idea. But, they all know how the broke up effected me. So the talk continue. Then, one of us have girlfriend. So, he was quiet and just go with the flow. Then one of them said, she was so perfect. I was thinking inside my heart, why girls always be perfect to guys?? They fake everything. Their words, their attitude. After break up, the true colors revealed. I am not referring all the girls. Well, everybody say something in the joyousness of the stupid love, but why it's hard to forget it?? Even just now, I was just thinking about my ex, everything my ex said is totally opposite of what she is doing now. She said she wouldn't leave me, she left. She said she will never ever hate me, now she hate me. She said there is no hate word exists between us, now she created it. She said she will always love me, GOD, I dunno she still loves me or not. Why those fake words gives us so much of hopes and then took everything what we have??

Then comes the shisha!!! Wohoo!!! So, this means it's gonna be a long talk. Then, they all asked me why I broke up. What should I say?? I wanna forget it. So just a brief explanation. Some of my friends already know that I went to the edge of death. I really did. There is some reasons. Some of my friends know about this. Some make fun of it, some know the pain I was suffering. Well, we talked a lot that day. It was a good experience for me. Lesson I learned, don't give everything to someone, coz if they go, they bring everything. Everything. And you left alone with nothing. The best part which you feel stupid is you still trust them but they don't give a damn about you. Everybody will be selfish no matter what they told or promised to you, when they didn't get what they want.

p.s.: Fuck those words. I am happy with what karma doing now. Time to stop and stare.