Alone.

Everytime I feel like it's over, actually it's not!! Fuck!! Why am I in this deep shit?? I really should stop reading her blog. Everytime there's a new pictures of her, it's just keep on reminding me how cute she is. Damn!! Am I gonna love her forever?? Am I gonna be like this forever?? Fuck this life.

p.s.: You born alone, you suffer alone, you die alone.

=)

There's a good news!! Recently, I don't feel anything at all. I mean before sleep. Every night is like a normal night. I don't day dreaming that much anymore. For the first time in this few months, I'm tasting the peaceful night.

p.s.: Funny thing about girls, yall will hate the guy that treat you right and yall will suffer and sacrifice for some guys that yall didn't even mean anything to them.

Start over??

Okay, let's start over. Everything. Just leave the education part alone. Don't think about that.

Girlfriend?? Yea, I need one. I need some one to love. Some one to care about. Something to hold me and gimme confidence. Some one to heal the scars. Some one to hold my hand and walk with me in this life. Something to believe in. Yea, I need one so badly. And I know, love is pain. The pain is so bad, so sharp, I been through it. I know I can't be trusting other girl anymore. But...... It's just, the pain of some girls did can only be cured by another girl. So, I need to try. I dunno how many shots I gonna give or I have. So, I just hoping, please, please, where the fucking hell are you baby??!! I'm gonna find another one. Fuck the pain, fuck all those fear in me, I'm gonna open my heart again. I'm gonna do with my old way. Choosy. That's the only way that satisfy me. FULLY!! =)

Friends?? Well, the most beautiful thing ever happened in my life. Nothing less. I have more and more from them. I just love every moment with them. It's like a tattoo in my life. Never gonna disappear. =)

p.s.: Fuck sadness, fuck emo-ness, there's only one life for me and I wanna live every moment of it. Hopefully, it's not too much to ask.

Fucked up life!!!

Everywhere I turn, I see DEAD END!!!

p.s: Can I bring my birthday earlier a bit?? Coz I can't wait for my tattoo!!!!

What to do??

Now I have time to spend, but no one to share. What to do....

p.s.: Why nowadays, all the girls in FB looks ugly to me??