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Empty inside or empty me??

Again, I'm gonna sleep with my head empty. I don't know why, I been like this for past few days. All I can think of is my ex. Even though she brought so much pain inside me, she is still my safest place I ever hide before. I feel like, "What's next?? What gonna happen?? Nothing that can be worst, coz I'm giving up. I'm giving up everything. I'm not gonna go against the flow anymore. I'm tired.". Everything that was so close with me past few months, now seems so far away. The wall I built around me, seems like invisible now. The people I trusted so much and shared everything, now seems like a stranger, like a normal friend to me. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's not something that they did, it's just something wrong with me. I feel like wanna get all the tattoos that I want on my body and die smoking a cigarette. What a perfect death??

p.s.: After all it's a fucking life. =)

It repeats again.

The end of the fairy tale. Again!!! I broke another girl's heart coz of choosing her. And I think that's the reason. May be love can't be start from braking hearts. I don't know. It's just I don't know. It's so painful to wait for a text reply. She told she was so busy till can't even text me once. I can tell yall, a "Good Morning" is enough to make me smile. She was that much for me. I went for the one I love and ignored the one loved me and now both is gone. Gone!!!

I'm sorry. Both of you, I'm sorry. I'm full of shit.

Next semester gonna start soon. Went back hometown like for a week. I hate to be in Penang. Full of memories. Can say full of shits. My semester break was kinda 1 month and I prefer to be here away from the people I love, from the place where I grew up. I'm already so far away from my family. It's kinda dissapointing when my friend from Aussie came back home for holidays and don't even try to contact me. Saw his pictures, went to Langkawi with the people we used to hang out last time. I was like what the fuck?? What did I do?? Am I invisible??

Everything is breaking into pieces again. I need to fix this shit. It's just why I wanna fix it, when it's gonna break again. Lack of motivation, lack of courage, lack of hope, coz I'm sick of this life.

p.s.: I'm sick of myself.